Showing up for life is half the battle: To show up in many instances requires (that as an consumer we) putting aside differences and personal agendas to show love, and support of close family members and friends often this requires that a consumer shows up with an open mind being receptive as well as perceptive in mannerism that is condign at that moment in addition to showing propriety. Typically,consumers confront everyday experiences with little prescience of life extremities;however,showing up for life is a prerequisite. Life requires that consumer not be quiescent but instill quietude in a daily routine to seek guidance and direction because not everything is for every consumer (everyone.) Normally, on an quotidian activity, a consumer experiences little interference while performing daily task; therefore, it is not surprising, in some instances that consumers often feelsaturnine or exacerbated because of stymied,delayed, or alternated plans. Although, a consumer thwarted plans causes them to feel exasperated or become lassitude as result of inadequate feelings consumer miss out on many of the p recious moments of life.Usually,the dreaded decisions,the conferences with the supervisor,family gatherings,presentations all require the consumer to show up 4 life. Showing up 4 is 1/2 the battle. American consumers frequently tout successful people that have accomplished their goals and dreams despite the obstacles.Ruefully,veritably, and unceremoniously,altruism a word to define the unselfish concerns for others, thus , often showing up for life requires the full attention of the individual. Unequivocally,as a consumer showing up for life requires taking action becoming actively involved in the lives of the others not becoming completely absorbed in personal melodrama to give concession to special events showing support and altruism,for example showing up at movie premiers,dance recitals,graduations,weddings,birthdays,anniversaries,seminars, beauty pageants and to job interviews Showing up for life requires that as consumers  not be spurious or disingenuous with status quo realizing as consumers when (we) reach an impasse showing up for life is half the battle to discovering an solution. Many times it is the consumers attitude that often precludes success ;more specifically, self esteem, finance,and coquetry.As a consumer overcome fears and dispell the myths about life,love,&money,then  with practice consumers ultimately will experience personal growth that often is far more greater than the actual success achieved. It is particularly important that consumers remember while enduring obstacles, and thwarted plans not all of life dilemmas are irremediable. As consumers we spend 80% percent of our time with coworkers 10% of the time standing in a line and another 10% on vacation or at leisure, all of the following requires that a consumer show up 4 life.

As the articles for cacjohnson become more difficult, I at times  felt exasperated and disconcerted with the progression of  the development cacjohnson.com. Particularly, in  the month of October cacjohnson.com had its high and lows, with outstanding debts and donations slow trickling  in the progess of cacjohnson is  improving;however, the progress is  contingent on the number of readers and followers. Highlights for the month October: I bought eight bags of traditional Halloween candy 1 bag from Walgreens and 7 bags from Rite Aid on sale. The greatest discover : I discovered that Rite Aid Halloween candy was 99cent in comparison to Walgreens $1.39. The Biggest disappoint: I didnt have Halloween candy on Halloween. The biggest disappoint I didn’t get to dress up as PoisonIvy,Snow White,an American Idol, Barbie,orBettyBoop.

Ghost,Ghouls,and Goblins….A month later after my 38^th birthday, I continue  to shop,to clip coupons,as  well as work to reduce my current debt.In the month of August and September I was able to reduce my number of returns and exchanges. Living on less than one third of my income, I am longer able to buy items such as shoes and clothing from the mall . Items I might have perceived in the past as must haves,I have to leave on the rack at clothing stores and food  on the shelf. I have resorted to buying  my shoes at the local thrift store that only ask for an minimal amount, for example,shoe cost $2.50 and boots are $5.00.Getting the designer look ,I have to go to the extreme and shop in the childrens section that offer tops and jeans for less. My greatest moment of weakenss happend in Walmart when I laid eyes on a pair of $20.00 JEANS i RESOLUTELY, left the jeans at the counter, a total disappoint, the fact I stop wearing $65.00 GAP Jeans to wearing $10.00 Levis.At 37th I wrote my self efficacy,at 38th I focused on achieveing my new years resolution Getting out Debt. Unequivocally,in September, I made some tough decisions starting  with my  (tough love)i.e 1985 Toyota Corolla yet I was able to preserver through the month;although, I preserved through the  month on the bare necessities.Nonetheless,the ambiance of the month was not ephemeral yet, the versimilitude of  the mood  and social environment i.e conditions remained a  some strange act faith(Against all odds …but its a chance I got take…) Veritably,as  the example of life making lemonade out oranges,I believe  with all of the obstacles  I encountered in September my 38th Birthday wasn’t that awful.The title section on my web site“At My Bad I’m Good&At My Best I’M Better” clearly  states my thoughts pertaining to the month of September. Egregiously,(I didnt squeeze any grapefruit, and I wont be going a grapefruit  diet any time in the near future.) Incontrovertibly,my social conditions is of a person living in a third world country with exception of access to modern technology. Yet in the midst of my ongoing adversity my sentiments,thoughts,as well asfeelings remain the same that the message of cac is exigent;furthermore,any personal feelings or emotions I might have regarding the surrounding conditions i.e economy,jobs, or housing is inconsequential,instead,it’s my deepest aspiration to remain diligent in providing access  especially for individuals with no credit or bad credit,an opportunity to improve their social condition as I experience first hand effects of the economic recession of 2008&2oo9 directly affecting middle class Americans . ..I Love Lucy, actually, I prefer Carol Burnett,Suzanne Sommers Goldie Hawn, &Meg Ryan—”Saving Private Benjamin/cacjohnson

September is the month of cac’s founder and president’s birthday. September a month filled with anticipation as well as uncertainty. Towards the end of August I decided,I definitely wanted September be a power month like power walking or playing racquet ball. September is the month I choose to make the greatest impact in my finances,personal life,and career. What began as a year, and a month of me closing in on FORTY,ultimately, the thought of turning FORTY brought me closer to my goals. Optimizing the social networking applications,I ordered online 2 Bebright Pink T’s from cause I’ve known about and have been educated on since high school,also I ordered online the Social Diva handbook,and I choose a debt consolidation program. With out a hitch not quite, September did not go without a hitch,on the morning of my birthday I had to return my birthday cake because I didn’t ask about the ingredients and the decision to donate my 1985 Toyota Corolla with sunroof and new locks to the Purple Heart Donors only two days before my 38^th birthday. Definitely, a hard decision to make because I m from Florida born and raised in Florida,formally educated and introduced to the sheriff in Florida, a brownie,a girl scout,a cadett,educated& graduated from an accredited Florida University and school system. Florida the “Sunshine state” beaches,exotic food,mix culture,long hair& short hair,most importantly it’s the state that gave me hope,embraced my skin color(ie Martin Luther King Day,Martin Luther Blvd, and Esther Rolle street). September the month of my birthday brought me closer to my my goal, my dream and resonated within my inner being like the sound of the waves the on the beach “Life is a process,and success in anything comes inch by inch,stroke by stroke,and step by step.”—cacjohnson

“Follow your dreams..take one step at time and don’t settle for less,just continue to climb”Amanda Bradley

“My dreams today are meant to guide me. I will take the first step toward making my dreams come true. June 3rd”….”

“The antidote is and always will be action,responsible action. Every concern,every experience wants our attention,our active attention. Sept 19th”— “Each Day A New Beginning” Women Book of Daily Meditation

August is the official month of http://www.cacjohnson.com birthday. Since the inception of cacjohnson.com, I continue to encounter obstacles;particularly, in the area of debt consolidation. A difficult and challenging month, the choices that confronted and awaited me in the month August,also held close ties to my becoming debt free. The choices that confronted me in the month of August included choosing a debt consolidation program,selling (Cash 4 Clunkers program)or donating my car,and celebrating the birthday of the website in August or in September the month of Birthday.—cacjohnson

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Efficacy:37th Birthday

Efficacy:For my 37th birthday, I woke up with a slight inner ear ache. The night before I didn’t sleep well because I was up until 3:00 am in the morning reading magazines and working on articles for cacjohnson website. It is possible that I could place the blame for my sleepless in Seattle on the excitement, the anticipation of becoming another year older, yet, I know it was because I felt harried about having to write ten articles a month from my personal experiences. Egregiously, I know that the articles will not miraculously write themselves, therefore, not to leave the articles to mere chance; I surround myself with magazines, and new articles so that my ideas do not become evanescence. The articles I write for cacjohnson I want them to reflect confidence and respect not only for myself but also for the readers. Without cessation, I am constantly working on new articles and different ways to promote cacjohnson without crossing lines of integrity. Often I become disconcerted, because at times I feel incapacitated that I am not able to do more because of my limited resources. If I were given a predilection it would most likely entail being in my own office sitting at desk with my name on the door, however, I can not allow the environment where I work to deter the progress of cacjohnson nor stymie my attitude. Although, things are not perfect and the way I would like i.e them not having credit.My current debt situation has caused my personal affairs and finances to be in maelstrom. The issue of secured line credit, has wreaked havoc in my personal and professional affairs, not to sound histronic it has really created hardship, still, the day was not about cacjohnson it was about me turning thirty- seven. Most importantly, I do not want my self efficacy to center around credit troubles, I would like to have self efficacy that stated I was as diligent,deft, and persistent with the power to produce and create quality. At thirty- seven, I want to be engendering and hopefully find longevity in my new career. Happy Birthday: The days leading up to my 37th birthday I regressed by making two pans of brownies, but not just any brownies, more specifically, Duncan Hines Chocolate Lover’s Brownies Walnut with California walnuts and Duncan Hines Chocolate Lover’s Brownies Milk Chocolate Chunk that I snorted down my throat for about four days. The actual day of my birthday, I wore a pink tank top with silver round neck and white cotton pants. Turning thirty- seven, I thought more introspection was what my inner being was carving,along with more attention; instead, I had a caprice that I am my own worst cynic that my day required less cynicism, less thought. On my thirty –seventh birthday, a little less seriousness, not so stern, I worked on the frivolous things that could make a big difference. I took an early morning walk to the local Walgreens to have reprints made of a picture, I use frequently to introduce myself to prospective patrons, sponsors, and donors my actions were partly centered around building up my website and being prepared to socialize with the public when I look less than perfect. I returned back to my place of residence after my visit at Walgreens I sat down at the kitchen table with some white labels and a black sharpie, slowly, not hastily because I didn’t want to make mistakes and waste reprints I began to place my web address and Po Box on the back of the reprints. After writing my web address on the reprints, next, I was off to the shopping center near my place of residence. At the shopping center I did some comparison pricing then decided it was too hot (about 90 degrees) to continue with the window shopping. Eventually, I made my way over to a nearby fast food restaurant in the shopping center and bought a double cheese burger that was my last stop for the day before returning home. As walked back to my place of residency I open a bright pink umbrella with the rocawear logo. I guess it belong to my younger sister, it was left by the front door whoever it belonged to it worked out great. The umbrella matched the outfit I was wearing plus it shields me from the harmful rays of the sun. By late afternoon, I was in air conditioner. A few hours later, I received a call from relatives wishing me Happy Birthday the conversation was curt because they were still recovering from Hurricane Ike. With all the frivolous things done around 6:30pm my mind was more open than when I first woke in the morning.Engender:To fulfill my inner being, I read three articles in Redbook Magazine October edition that only drew me closer to my own mortality, and the sobering thoughts of how important it has become to seize each day. The first article I read”What I learned from breast cancer”… “one writer reveals what it’s really like to live with the disease” immediately, I began to have flash backs from the first time I was told by a nurse practitioner that I had reoccurring ovarian cyst, My first response was I wanted to become discrete with article I felt a strong sense of wanting to be separated and unattached from the words of the author. Over the past years, my reoccurring cysts have been problematic but not have developed to the worst case scenario as the author in the article. Although,I have had close encounters with the possibilities of cancer but did not follow through to receive the outcome. The main reason I have not followed through was not out of fear of the results,basically because many of the doctor visit require that I go by myself during periods of time that I am in dark place without an Amen Corner or Girl Friend support group often I am left irate and disheartened ,especially,during times of my health scare .

Continuation of Efficacy I: As result of reading the article “What I learned from breast cancer” I began to review what I knew about cancer from my many visits to Planned Parenthood clinics. Eventually, I did not dissemble the truth about cancer that it can be life threatening. Another astonishing truth,unquestionably,unequivocally, cancer affects millions of women.Ultimately, at some point in time millions of women every year must come face to face with the truth,the possibility of having breast cancer or ovarian cancer. I n my particular experience with breast exams and pap smears, I know that cancer can be devastating if left undetected and should not be taken likely; most importantly, I also know that with the new treatments available cancer doesn’t have to be the final word.
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