Oh,He_ yes !! Let’s Go There…

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Oh,Hexx yes!! Let’s Go There..

Instead of writing my blog on the day it first entered my blogosphere as I began to experience an adrenaline  rush   and the emotions towards whatever the he xx I was feeling seemed to the up-most exigent ,at that moment,not one word was written.2 days after Super Bowl Sunday,the idea to write a blog stayed in remnants of my mind ie my blogosphere , oddly,not one word was written until today at 3:51pm n February 9,2010. As stumble I through this blog in trying to recall what was so exigent at that moment the feelings of that day remain elusive;however,I recall last year about this time  only few days after the Super Bowl XLIII I wrote brief an article ,alright, (more like a paragraph) and in that paragraph I stated ‘the steps we are taking today will never again be taken in exactly the same way. Thoughts we are thinking are fresh, never to be repeated.All these moments offer will never pass our way again.”Precisely , at this moment while I read my scribble scrabble of f the back of a printout that tells me my card number ,more specifically, my library card number and how much it cost to print from the print machine in the computer lab, yes, I mentioned the word ,the place, the library technically  it’s the public library that I frequent to access the internet as well as perform job searches, because its cost efficient and these days I’m on budget and it’s part of my job to find savings, at any rate;veritably, at this particular moment  I could not tell you what the Sam he xx I felt was so exigent on Super Bowl Sunday that I wanted to jump out of my bed with my hair unkempt, my teeth hadn’t been brushed basically, I was wide-eyed and freaky tail looking a far cry from aVictoria Secret or America’s Top model on a good without makeup. Anyway, exactly what emotion or event irked me to the point to get the urge  to jump out of my bed stop reading my YA (young adult) book “Getting the  Girl (A Guide to Private Investigations,Surveillance, And Cookery)on a Super Bowl Sunday other than the fact I had  felt some really intense motivation to write a blog  about this mysterious emotion or maybe it was present social condition ie  none. From what I am able to recall, I was sitting in my bed reading  what some readers might consider a good read with the TV turned down low watching Super Bowl  pre-game show when Isuddenly felt disconcerted, exasperated, and exhausted from the recent bdays events. As a matter of fact now that I am tracing the day , I believe it was combination of  bad food or poor food choice then again I didn’t get up to enter  the kitchen to attempt to make breakfast, so it must have been something I ate the day before ,I totally  could not tell you what was so exigent at the moment. As I previously stated or have alluded to in my writings, I have a strong penchant for caffeine and prefer  drink Coke a Cola however I skip the Coke for Pepsi I do know if that was cause of my sudden mood swing in fact I didn’t realize it was a mood swing until I began typing this blog okay now I’m writing I’m typing my thought s as they float around in my blogosphere but it’s not really my blogosphere until I post blog  with my other blogs. Oh,Hexx yes,Let’s Go There, egregiously , I cant take you there because I donated my car.— Social Life 

And that statement I mentioned during the last Super Bowl”The steps we are taking today will never again be taken in exactly the same way. Thoughts we are thinking are fresh, never to be repeated.All these moments offer will never pass our way again.“,it’s true, just as I was  completing this blog and ready to upload it on the internet, Iempty the contents of my purse on the table and the floor to realize I was missing a battery then right in the middle of searching 4 the battery my mom calls my business line, I answer the phone she calmly states she doesnt have her house key and politely ask how far from the house  am I now I beginning  to felt that same emotion I felt on Super Bowl Sunday  with much intensity,eventuall, I state to my mom on the phone give about fifiteen to twenty minutes when she states it’s raining outside I’ll come and get you, I say just give me a couple minutes,a few minutes later I call her back .  One hour passes from time I called my mom back from time she picked me up and I opened the door, I do not feel the intensity from the time I completed this  blog.Everyone has a story to tell, I’m no tattle teller or a liar okay an intentional liar but what makes my story different  from someone else other than the fact that I’m the one telling it.

A final tid bit or PS I Love You ,I just complete“Faking 19 “ for Valentines a good read.—xoxocacjohnson

Snow Days:Developing Thick-skin and One Of Their Own.

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“Someone was hurt before you; wrong before you; hungry before you; frightened before you; beaten before you;humiliated before you;raped before you; yet, someone survived”—Maya AngelouA prerequisite for developing thickskin: whether you’ve been bullied, kicked in the head, punched in the face,beat in the chest, and stabbed in the back , it’s a prerequiste to keep your thoughts and feelings in check;of course,today that’s still easier said than done. Also,remain calm in confrontation,continue to have respect for the opinions of others, agree to disagree,remember that you can not control the actions of others but you can control how you react,most importantly  keep your hands and feet to yourself no matter what choice of words  the person choose to convey  their thoughts. So you have not develop thick-skin ,still a duck waddling in the water,and you’ve got yuorself in a sticky situation, even worse, badly  injure  by defamator remarks that have now rendered you helpless to you predator; therefore; you might w2ant to consider seeking additional  help or counseling if the abuse persist each time your in this person presence.Often ,actively listening to the person qualms allowing them to  relieve themselves on you in most instances will diffuse the situation at that point it’s best to say nothing .”There are two things over which you have complete dominion,authority,and control—your mind and your mouth.”—Molefi Asante,subsequently, my mind  and mouth are primarily two reasons I decided not  to blog everyday, I am best able to sum it up in this quote“I am nice  person;although, I have ugly feelings”(thoughts.)

Each day I endure obstacles,each day I’m constantly attacked in my thoughts. If I were to blogged everything I felt or wanted or desired to say I about life,people,or relationships ,I might come across to readers as being a  mentally deranged or disturbed person. I have found that it’s best that I allow my thoughts to sit for a day or two then read or look over what I have written to see if I still feel the same or  if I’m being histrionic.“I am thankful for the adversities which have crossed my path and taught me tolerance,perseverance,self control,and some other virtues I might have never known.—Anonymous On this particular day, while in my rented room reading,snow began to cover the ground as I slowly began to read several young adult books ,thoughts began to run rampant in my head , instead of continuing to read, I took a break from the books to tweet. As I stated previously,after reading several pages of the young adult book, I took a moment to look at my tweet page only to discover my internet access on my Virgin Mobile Xtc was not working therefore I was not able to tweet which reminds me of a chat room even though I ve never gone online in a chat room. Anyway,immediately after, I realized I could not access the internet on my Virgin Mobile Xtc I became exasperated but continued reading the young adult books I checked out days earlier. It was while I was in my room snowed in and reading the young adult books I thought of the title for this blog Snow Days:Developing A Thick-skin. Three books that influence me the most to write this blog was one young adult book I ‘d read a few weeks ago Kiss&Blog the other two were Ms. Thang and Urban Goddess the ATL series. All three books focus on friendships,sharing secrets, and developing relationships outside of the coterie.  With books and paper stacked to the  ceiling,I began reading the young adult books I checked out as well as jotting down my thoughts and feelings . Equivocally, I began to blog my thoughts. My initial thoughts began with my lack of friends or not wanting friends. I personally  feel I have moved beyond  the friendship stage, I feel that developing friends or having friends was something I did in Elementary school, Middle school, High School, and College. Thus, the question I asked myself “where are those now friends now?” Many of my friends from  Middle school, High School and College have maturated and moved on , some with raising their only families others making career moves. Nevertheless,statements such as“I wish I  never met her, I wish  she never came in my home,I wish I never was friends with her,I wish I never did anything for her, If somebody did  that for me this is what I would have done(as to state  they would have have been the better friend then I,  I wish she was never born or to listen to someone make such statements  like Rite  Aid “its personal ‘ personal gain would  be the main motivation to sit and listen to  the belittling,  degradation, and slander of character of a  family member or said friend ) Admittedly, I have not personally espoused  such statements at any given particular moment  within the last ten years one because of my skin color, two because of  my bank account,and lastly because I was raised by my grandmother who did not teach me to think that way. However, any particular person that might have mentioned such statements in reference to me personally then it would be my belief that such particular person made such  statements because they either  didn’t like, love,or care about me from jump but  performed acts of kindness to be  politically and socially correct while waiting  for the grass to turn green on the other side. Throughtout the years, I have kept my distance from family and friends including  learning to live with  in the boundaries set by immediate and surrogate families I say families because over the years I become accustom to having more than one mother or father. Again many of my friends have big families older siblings  as well as tantamount of aunts and uncles that keeps them completely engrossed in family matters. Also, I learned not to discuss one family business with the other to  fit in or acquire material gain.Loyalty and privacy I have subscribed to as well as taken seriouly ever since  I was in middle school and began keeping a diary,unequivocally, each of my family surrogate has taken me in and has treated  as one of their own. Today, one of the primary reasons that I have very limited number of close friends that I am able to count on one hand( )  because I do not entertain buying friends,or collecting friends like trophies to use as pawns to manipulate , to control, or to build a spy network  to win points  or gain popularity with folks that have the means to proliferate my bank account and maybe I should have, considering my current living conditions(one of a person living in a third world country). Besides,who wants to play favorites?,although, in elementary school the students called me the teachers pet  because I was allowed  to take names whenever the teacher had to leave the classroom and I was allowed conduct class ,I mean teach a class lesson, but I’m sure all of that changed when I got paddled in the back of  classroom in front of the entire class then I  was made to stand  by the teacher with my nose in the corner . As I grow older, I realize that friendships are like marriages with the exception to being married you marry the man or women and not his or her family. On the other hand with friendships if  something goes down believe me when something happens and it always will, you’ve got  big brothers, big sisters, uncles, aunts cousins, first , second, third and forth cousin to  possibly confront or have to explain yourself” well ,“what happened between you and so and so”believe me  Ive been through it and that’s a whole lot of explaining. Today, in this day and age, friendships are  more like marriages ie (divorce )they can get messy. The rumor mill with large families at any time could become very similar to Don  Quixote fighting windmills especially if you are the only child or you come from a small family. The best advice any parent could give any teenager would be to choose their friends wisely. Do I regret any of the friendships I have developed? First of all, I never thought of regretting a friendship  because I value friendship and considered them sacred just like marriage. Second, I am mostly too business working, looking for work, basically trying to pay  rent  keep my car running too busy to have time to think of regretting friendships. After graduating college,I   was elated to have graduated, even though some shxx went down  before I graduated college and, no ET didn’t phone home, whether or not family members  got hold of  my innappropriate college behavior  ,seriously, I dont know; however ,I dont blame any particular person for my shortfall or misgivings  in my personal relationships or friendship. Until recently within the last five years during my illness and  convalescence has my thoughts pertaining to friendships (ship) sailed in a different direction. People in this world have a way of getting their point across: for instance,with such statements  like “every good politician must know how to lie,cheat, and steal”  “if you touch it and breaks you pay for it,” “you keep your hands and feet to yourself,” “I  don’t touch you , you don’t touch me,”  “if its not yours don’t touch it”, “ask before you borrow,”if borrow you something please return it ”,if you hit a car and no one is around leave a note,”  and  to really nail the point home “the place where you act up that where you get beat up.”Finally, I was raised to believe that handwork is rewarding  and that crime doesn’t pay,  I do not feel I was disingenuous to family and friends, I believe I am  a straightforward person any reason of suspicion otherwise could be easily questioned by any family member,I would not have hesitated to answer, out my strong sense  of morality and gratitude for the many  random acts of kindness (you) they have  performed .  So..what happened between the day I graduated from high school to day I graduated from college; shxx happens and it did,it’snot a mystery  to close family and friends  that know most of the details pertaining to my college years at (FAMU) Florida Agricultural and Mechanical University .In some instances; more frequently,  in the last two years, I ‘ve begun to believe that “you hated me before I was ever born” thus any in propriety from  my pass or lack of social graces  for you becomes an excuse to reveal what you have always felt but never had the opportunity to express or the appropriate moment had not manifested itself to allow that  inner emotion  of deep seeded hatred of me as a person more specifically for my skin color that  you so poignantly project towards me because  in actual reality you hate yourself  and by focusing on my in proprieties makes you feel powerful;nevertheless, my moral and social obligation that I extend to  you as well as family,surrogate family and friends remains  a simple assertion  as well as observation that you allowed me to live,you did not kill me,you clothed and fed me,you give me opportunity where others were forlorn,disconcerted, and impecunious. Therefore,whether I succeed or fail the fact remains,I was given an opportunity. And it’s liberating to tell the world at the age of forty,I want  a gun for my fortieth birthday along with a Master of Arts degree from Boston College, Lynch School of Eduction. As kid, I remember my grandmother kept  two sawed off shot guns in her apartment home, she used the guns on the Orange Groove but the crime or violence in the  new neighbor wasn’t bad enough to pull out the shotguns. The world has evolved since my days of elementary school, middle school, high school and college and so has many of  my friendships. So,what’s the prerequiste to developing thick-skin on snows besides purchasing a really good winter coat to stay warm:(1)keeping your thoughts and feelings in check,(2) dont react,listen (3)respect the opinions others even if you dont agree (4)express gratitude in every situation (5) in life threatening situations get out  of harms way and on the days that you’re snowed in unable to get the grocery store or go to work remember this quote“Notice to guest:If there’s anything you need  and dont see,please let us know,we will show you how to do without it”—Mary Williams Mcfadden

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

January’s Tweetcloud

Love rhyme:chocolate covered cherries in&out season

“Sweet dreams are made of these who am I to disagree, travel the world in the seven seas everybody looking for something…sweet dreams are made of these big guns little guns, chocolated covered cherries in out season, a rhyme without reason dying before your season..sweet dreams are made of these caught up in the rapture of  love sending you empty box of chocolate and some black roses then maybe youll begin to love yourself while sitting home with  my wife and kids I told you nothings etched in stone you never know who you gonna love; love make things happens doesnt mean I ll leave my wife and kids for you tired you sang the same old song when somebody gonna love me I already had my heart broken love with your heart listen to your mind dont let  BET,and TV One  make the choice for u remember your dreams dont let them rule you reach for the star and baby girl I always be true 2you keep it real on the QT tip love doesnt have to stop or end with me…” sampling music from songs and TV shows

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copy,cut,edit,paste,dot every i cross every t,& write something stupid.

I’m not a writer, I’m English major with a knack for words. I studied semantics and syntax as a young child with books given to me by  father then later in life I attend college and took a course called “History of the English  Language”  a long with another course titled”Understanding the English Grammar” I’m not an avid or voracious reader but I enjoy reading books  that are both eductional and entertaining. I grew up reading the classics such as To Kill A Mockingbird, Diary of Anne Frank,The Scarlett Letter, Uncle Tom’s Cabin,The Hobbit,The Bluest Eye,The Color Purple,  as a youth I also enjoyed reading the Beverly Clearly series that contained the characters Ramona and Henry.Recently, I discovered a line of books about the seedy side of life in Atlanta and Los Angles  mostly fiction with black women as the main characters . While living at my grandmother’s apartment home, I had access to many books including an entire closet of the National Geographics. Academically, I continue to have a penchant as well as a predilection in English,Creative writing, and Foreign Languages with Biology and Algebra  following in at a close third. On the days that I’m not going boy crazy or stressing over my ruined wedding day or the fact that Im 38  and this year I will be  THIRTY-NINE ;I’m taking  time  to  focus on my academia and  futhering my education,until, I have a memory lapse realizing my age of course. Basically, the older I get the less I daydream but the days I indulge in daydreaming it’s not your typical daydream of muscle bound  men in thongs,no, Im dreaming of  a Private Eye,  a divorcee, a ladies man, more than likley I was his second or third choice with love handles.Not surpirsingly,  the dreams ends when I realize how ruthless women can be  just to get married and  have fairy tale wedding .I dont have a problem with  you sucking dxxx to get a man  because I’m a staunch supporter in “Freedom of Choice ”, ” You get what you pay for” and “It takes two tango”  but that does not mean I condone rape and abuse of spouses but what it does mean if you suck his dxxx he belongs to you and he aint fit for shxx. Also vice versa for men I dont have a problem with you choosing european caucasion look as a preference that’s your choice and I respect it but dont go looking for the Afrocentric chic when shxx dont go your way. In other words my daydream ends at  your left over, messed over, picked over ,sloppy seconds. So what does this have to do  with  a hill of beans or the price of tea in china absolutely nothing  but  the US economy hasnt faired to well in the Stock Market. Beside I wasnt interested in that stock anyway.Indeed, it takes a strong women to put up with  infidelity,secret indiscretion and sex addiction.Usually that strong women happens  to be of darker pigmentation. I was told by a parent not to suck dxxx at a young age at this point in my life Im not ready to make that my steady. Yes, I love good dxxx as much as the next hetero or homo but the lenghts I am willing to go to get married or have a male companion or fairy tale wedding to this generation it’s just too old fashion, out of date and antiquated. Im not at home waiting for a Knight and Shining Armour to save me. Im not at home making weekend dates with a dildo or a vibrator, no , I am reading books ,increasing my  vocabulary,  formulating emotions into thought eventually into words like this blog codign, and “copy,cut,edit,paste,dot every i cross every t &write something stupid” .No, Im not at home watching televison more specifically cable televsion or porn.It’s very rare that I get to watch a television series through its entire season. It was just the other day I rediscovered Nickelodeon and the new Degrassi Generation.During a time that most women my age are stay at home moms, mothers, wives, daughters, sisters, and friends. I am a granddaughter, a daughter, a niece, a cousin and a sister friend. On the other hand to  cacjohnson.com, I am an Independent Consultant, Personal Shopper, Administrative Assistant, Personal Assistant, Appointment Setter, Clerk I&II, Receptionist, Editor, Executive Director, Advertising Director, Production Manager, Event Coordinator, Staff Photographer, Contributing Writer, Business Manager, and Design Layout Executive. No,Im not a Saint or Saint Joan of Arc, although I  portrayed her  in a dramatic reading. I’m not a writer;I’m English major.“copy,cut,edit,paste,dot every i cross every t &write something stupid”

 

“365 days of shopping, on one of those days ,I viewed 67 th annual Golden Globe Awards”

On  Sunday evening, I viewed the 67^th annual Golden Globe awards. Not surprisingly,determining gender at the event  was a no brainer, effeminate, senous, and scintillating,incontrovertibly, the designer names worn at the event held up to the test and viewer approval. Several of the female presenters,nominees, and attendants showed a little more cleavage then I prefer on public access televison  other than if “you got flaunt it”o r “a parade of stars” it was an televised evening of elegance. Of course compared to the rags in my closet, the  ladies gowns was elegant and to die for with the exception to the cleavage rule.  No, I’m not hater  as I if you  didnt know, hating goes against everything I stand to believe; it’s a  breast thing  that only women whose small breast eventually becomes  a joke of a boyfriend or spouse  might agree with me “you’ve seen one , you’ve seen them all” doesnt apply to every women. Seldom do I make a point to view the Golden Globe Awards;however,this year I took  a special  interest to viewing the event  primarily  because I set the date on my calendar. Although, I missed the opening performance that usually  begans with a comedic standup or a broadway musical,still  not knowing the the details of the way the event began I viewed the 67^th annual Golden Globe Awards  thus following the event  to the  end including the commercials, ,I was  that missed the beginning of the event.Nevertheless , in the same evening, I viewed the Q&A responses with the nominees and winners. 

the previous years that I have viewed Golden Globe Awards the show familiar with the shows and actor and actresses  back with my pics already selected,  this yearI learned of  the nominees by watching one or the morning news shows. Eventually, I viewed a few shows  as well as movie previews up to the day the 67^th annual Golden Globe  event aired  but not enough to take a select winners. Egregiously, in years past,as small kid then later into my late twenties  I view the Golden Globe Awards  with family and friends during those            each of us  often taking turns at each categorgry selecting a  winner ;unequivocally,I  was  not able to make an educated guess or select best pic,actor  or actress  my television and movie trivia out of date.Many of nominees names  sounded like a foreign  langauge  I do not watch cable on a  regular basis  actors and actress  nominated  unless the show aired on public access television Since I have nt been to the movies  a  couple of years  its  while that I have viewed the Glden Globe awards, the last movie  I actually viewed in theater to the best of my remembrance was ‘Lord of the Rings ‘ sequel. Normally, I go to movie theaters with family and friends Typically, the movies I  choose  to view at movie theaters often  science fiction,action suspense, Clearly, I wasnt  up to date  with the actor and actress nominated from cable shows.  Many of the movies up for nominations  I did not see.Monique won best supporting actress, I was not cognizant she received the Golden Globe Awards until the following  day while viewing the Wendy William’s show.

2morrow Ill take confession & write a blog

This morning I woke to freezing temperatures in the low 30’s.Eventually,I began dethawing myself from the frigid temperatures with a small size heater located in my room. As soon as  I was able to feel my hands and feets,I walked out of my room through the hallway passing the living room and dining area to enter into the kitchen. Immediately as I entered the kitchen,I began gathering the ingredients 2 make my breakfast;of course, it was not your typical breakfast of  eggs,grits,bacon,ham,toast,& sprinkle of sharp cheddar with a cup of coffee; instead my breakfast was a spinach wrap that contained seasoned ground beef and  shredded mexican cheddar. At the same time while making my breakfast I’m cleaning as I go which basically entails me washing my dishes plus cleaning the kitchen counter top and putting away any or all dishes from the previous evening. While in the kitchen I also  surveyed and took notice that the cat poop(bm) was already in a plastic bag it just required that someone put  in the out door trash yes!there’s a cat staying at my place of residence the name of the cat at place of residence she’s called Sparkle  and over a number of months my mom began calling her “Crunch&Munch” other alias “Spark! stay out the way so you dont get kill” Spark belongs to one of my sister best friends.Egregiously, the other day I shared a laugh with my mom and sister at the announcement that Sparkle was being fed 3 to five meals a day  because each time I,my mom or sister walks into the house one of us unkownkingly of the other actions would feed her,surprisingly this was going on just about every day for a few  months until the announcement during the Christmas holidays with that said Sparkle’s poop(bm) was place in the outdoor repectacle by the hand that often feeds her none other than cacjohnson aka “Jamala”. I dont mind feeding  Sparkle I just learn to include her as  part of my daily regimen along with surveying the kitchen several time before I leave to run my daily errands,although, I could be boardline (OCD) with Sparkle and keeping the kitchen in check. Exasperated and exacerbated ultimately still upset over unfinished blogs that I have not completed that I scheduled to  posted on the cacjohnson message board and cacj weblog this month(January),I take a moment to reflect on last night tweets more specifically a tweet I tweeted that stated “2morrow Ill take confession,confess my sins and write  a blog” Admittedly even more distressing moving into the new year with no set New Years Resolution “etched in stone “only to continue to work towards decreasing my debt which has neither increased or diminish significantly in amount but continues to remain a pain in my size zero or -1 axx  also remains to be the number one reason  hindering as well as obstructing my buying power specifically Im refering to first time  owner home buyer or just being able to rent an apartment in the Va thats not in a high crime area, roach, and rat infested.No, (it’sall good in the hood) as the T-shirt I bought  intentionally several  month ago stated because it was discounted then later realizing it was promoting stereotypes and was a racial divider in the community that I reside as of today I  have folded and put that shirt away with my summer stuff and most likely will only use it in a presentation  against Gang Violence,Racial Stereotypes,Black on Black crime & the debate  on the great racial divide. Mostly importanly, I look forward 2 the day that I no longer have to call the Broward Sheriffs Office( BSO )on every holiday  saying “I was fxxked like a dog in the road, and I had shxx smeared in my face” all  the while you were looking for the next porn star i.e  Jam… Jameson. I didnt even know who Jam..Jameson was until  I  forced to relocate from the state of Florida, it absolutely ludicrous, its no way in Hose I would consider a porn move with all my fxxking education that totally opposite of my upbringing with 2 degrees Associate of Arts and Bachelor of Arts  I went to school on a scholarship, Iwas formally educated, and formally introduced to the sheriff, I was Brownie,Girl Scott & a Cadet, okay what’s the difference between a (head concussion,mental ly impaired and disabled). Besides it would be great to be in my own  house or apartment  writing  well researched articles 4 my website without  the circumspect hint that Im  running up electric or water bill or even worse freeloading&using.On the upside, I completed 2 books in the new year and redesigned my website plus just before New Years, I read Letters to a Young Sister author Hill Harper and Letters to My Daugthers author Maya Angelou. estatic,overjoyed,hopeful that my web site progression although slow continues to be a source of  motivation eventually move beyond rudimentary stages of an minority startup… I remain somewhat behind schedule with my blogs”2morrow Ill take confession,confess my sins and write a blog.”

15 days until Christmas plus Christmas stockings,holiday shoppers,with”365 days of shopping…”and a bright&shining New Year.

15 days until Christmas… 2 months earlier President Obama was awarded the Nobel Peace Prize

15 days until  Christmas…The first day was World Aids Day (December 1st)

15 days until Christmas…Two weeks into the month of December talk show host  and business mogul Oprah Winfrey anounces 2010  will be the last season of  her long time daytime  talk show.

15 days until Christmas…A month earlier two  of the biggest shopping days of the  holiday season Black Friday& Cyber Monday  on both days store merchants and consumers  were hopeful that holiday sales will boost a sluggish economy.

15 days of Christmas…the year ended with two of television most viewed reality shows  battling it  out in front of millions of viewers from a public divorce,to an hiatus,&recasting Jon&Kate plus 8 and the Atlanta Housewives

15 days until Christmas…Twitter.com experienced tweet overload

15 days until Christmas..Virgin Mobile introduce a new phone “Rumor”

15 days until Christmas…The popular Blackberry phones occurred an six hour outage  2 days before Christmas .

15 days until Christmas…A  severe winter storm  hits the east coast delaying flights and leaving holiday travelers stranded in airports.

15 days until Christmas… Good Morning America  co-anchor  Diane Sawyer leaves  morning news to anchor Prime  time news.

15 days until Christmas … & Facebook gets a new look

15 days until Christmas…plus Christmas stockings,pointsettas,”365 days of shopping…”and a bright&shining New Year.

15 days until Christmas..2weeks  after Christmas the 67th annual Golden Globes to air on January 17th

15 days until Christmas…within the same month the Grammy MusicAwards on January 31st

15 days until Christmas

 

Sincerely,

ConsumerAffairs Consultant,Sales&Service Manager

A labourer’s love

A labourer’s love, the birth,the miracle,the abdunant blessing,the blood, the faithful and the unfaithful,the hopeful and the hopeless,the merciful and the merciless,the doubtful and the undoubted,the old and the young,the lamented and the exulted, the  remorsed and the remorseful the celebrated and uncelebrated, the aged sackcloth and the wine fermented to full flavor.—(Happy New Year)

and on this day I felt hated by many and loved by few.—the cruxification,the resurrection,the Passover,and “the Passion of the Christ”

(Abridged)A Placed Called Eden,”Heaven&Earth,’lift every voice and sing until heaven and earth rings’…”

December 2009:

A Place called Eden“Heaven and Earth,Lift Every voice and sing until Heaven and Earth rings”

Another year is slowly approaching an end; soon it  will be New Years day,although,I did not achieve all of my new years resolution in 2009,recovering from a convalescence,a malicious assault,a brutal attack against my person, refusing to become the victim but instead seeking to be victorious, not focusing on past wrongs,my skin color,my nose,my hair,my five and dime clothes, my surrounding environment or what I have or don’t have I am  thankful for many things,I am also depressed, despondent, and dejected regarding my personal affairs,as well as,at a lost for words to express my  sincere condolences to the family of the men and women my age who didn’t  get to celebrate another birthday,eat a Thanksgiving meal or wrap a present for a loved one. With the recent lost of life, the September11th twin towers,the military women and men whom lost their lives in Iraq an Iran,the young women murdered in the prime of her life,the men and women who lost their lives in Texas  on  military base to a fellow coworker,the abduction and murder of a little girl in North Carolina, Thanksgiving and Christmas for many Americans this holiday season  .As I realized and throughout the years has learned, the holiday is not just about the gifts under the tree,the festive food, and the festive music,it’s a day to be shared with closed friends, family, as well as remembering the lives of those who enriched,enjoyed,enlightened,uplifted,and inspired but is not with us today,As Maya Angelou so poetically wrote “Still I Rise” although on some days it becomes difficult and saturnine “Still I Rise”,I rise to the snow,I rise to sun,I rise to the rain, I rise to be a voice for those who cannot be a voice for themselves,I rise to vote,I rise to a make difference in someone’s life, I rise to ease the pain of another and to be source motivation for others,I rise to high unemployment numbers,I rise to homelessness,I rise to disease and sickness,I rise to catch the bus,I rise to crawl,I rise to walk,I rise to my modified American Dream,most importantly,I rise to me and all of my imperfections“Still I Rise”.. At the same time, whether if  I rise to the tune of  Whitney Houston “I look to you..” or Arethea Franklin and collaborated music artist “A rose is still a rose…baby girl you have the power .. he didn’t make you and he can’t break you because a rose is still a rose..”,  I rise in remembrance of  all those who came before me lest I forget the obstacles, the hardship,the dead, the blood shed, the disease and sickness, the death and  dying of the  young then I am not being truthful with myself ,it’s not of  my own doing but it is a collective work that continues to manifest it self through words,through art,through social activism,and through songs(  ). As a result,amidst the carnage,I continue to strive to be the best me that I am able to be,and undoubtedly to live my life to the fullest not haphazardly,not taking for granted God given gifts and talents,and opportunities fulfilled,but I remain vigilant, hopeful, optimistic that as I was once raised to believe hard work is rewarding and crime doesn’t pay that one person is able to make a difference.“ Si,se puede” coined  phrased during the Obama campaign..

 

 

…. it’s not in the books that I’ve read, the tapes I’ve listen to it was and is a god given gift ,talent,embroider in my fabric from birth…to be voice for those who cannot be voice for themselves during this economic upheaval,.. at the the top of getting ahead,getting into the the game and Stepping UP to the plate of responsibility and accountability in other words with one word (ownership.) With all the financial obstacles I continue to encounter which  includes a closed checking accounts,shoes still in shoe repair since July (flip flops in December),a winter coat never purchased,a debt management program awaiting payment to aver bill collector calls ,no first time home buyer ownership,no bankruptcy filed, no turkeys or pies freshly cooked for a house warming party, I remain optimistic that the my current…arrangement is all a  temporary solution to a temporary problem, that I will be better than when I first arrived to the Hampton Roads Area not just in words but physically and mentally . Notably, I of all person understand that it’s not a person’s education but the condition of the mind as well as a person attitude toward recent events and experiences that ultimately will determine the level of success reached,and the of  number of goals achieved. In most instances,learning to be quick to listen,slow to speak, and slow wrath helps eschew unnecessary pitfalls avoid more setbacks …I continue to look forward  the today that www.cacjohnson.com becomes a well known web site on the internet and a source of motivation and inspiration to its followers just as Tyra Banks is to the fashion industry and Martha Stewart is to Better Homes and Gardening and Martha Stewart Everyday Living. Also,I look forward to the day that I am free of debt and living in my own home. In summation ,November was a month full of Thanksgiving, no packing, no pushing, no shoving,no soup kitchens,and no last ditch to seek shelter in a designated homeless shelter in the Hampton Roads Area,Virginia. What began as  power a month,remarkably, ended on a c minor note with an increase in Twitter followers,two books read that I am able to add to my book list,and the completion of my web design available for followers to view in December. Admittedly, the month of  November did not turn out exactly the way I  planned,nonetheless,I am optimistic that the month of December holds better results than the previous month,and in meantime and in between time remains“365 days of shopping,…2be thankful,2be blessed,2be loved,2be a cheerful giver,and 2be a believer in all things,”as I cultivate my mind,grow and learn from my life’s lessons,and from others in my surrounding environment,I’ll continue to press forward towards a higher calling. I continue to remain vigilant,hopeful,optimistic that the landlord doesn’t change the locks on the doors,cut the lights off,call the yard man to put my things on the doorstep,run up a phone bill,or put a foreclosure sign in the yard and move into a hotel all while I search for a place called Eden until then Lift every voice and sing,sing until heaven and earth rings…In search of A Place called Eden.—cacjohnson

October 10,2008@2:11pm/Controversy:Blogging for readers

cacjohnson.com has only been  up for about 3 months prior to the web site cacjohnson.com was a web holder page. Over the next few months, as I continue to focus on writing articles about my personal experience as consumer before and after college, I look forward to the increase in reader response and hope that readers will find their way to http://www.cacjohnson.com. The articles, as well as, the topics  vary from  race relations to separation of church and state.To those readers and bloggers who have read the articles on cacjohnson.com from the background information given in the articles readers and  bloggers have probably ascertained that I am a conservative from dress to speech partly because of my upbringing and the other half because I been drilled, trained, re-drilled, and re-trained for a diverse workplace. Just recently I have been taking hints that my conservative position could possible be ready for a makeover; the long awaited re-adjustment, including the thought, the euphemism that I should forget everything that I know about politics,religion, education,and the workforce, for a 37 (thirty-seven) year old  single black female that’s a long stretch.Thus, on November 4th when I do go to the polls when I vote it will not be about a red or blue state/polls/censuses but the issues. If I could persuade votes,  I would say vote for (public Records.)Educated guess? cacj is not a daily blog. I will inform readers and bloggers within  the following weeks on what days I will post blogs.

Blogging for readers

October 11,2008@1200pm/What Bloggers should know about cacjohnson.com/Product Tester

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October14,2008@1142am/Expanding Horizons,Nights&Weekends,

                                                                                                                              Expanding my horizons is one the positive changes I have made with in the last few months with building my web site, especially as a conservative, non party affiliated. By taking the steps to stop isolating myself from the world or limiting my reader base, blogging is a positive step for me when used in the correct way for a conservative who does not watch porn, or buy into pornographic music. With great trepidation, and skepticism, after having been a conservative for so many years blogging is still somewhat risqué  because of the uncertainty of who’s reading the blogs , yet, as a conservative  building a blog  that will attract readers and bloggers with similar experience out weighs the risk of a possible blog stalker. By blending in with mainstream society, building a blog  that will attract readers and bloggers with similar experience is my idea of being in the in crowd ,hip, sheik, getting in the zone, stop acting like an over zealous human with limited social interaction(a blog &web site.)In other words,I do have a life and I am now taking the time to invite complete strangers a glimpse of my life. Unquestionably, I was reluctantly to start blog because I didn’t want it to seem like just another booty-call/hook-up  which was the wrong stance to take; instead, after few days in deliberation, I said this could be a great way to meet people with like minds. Cacj Blog is not just a blog but a billboard to draw more readers to cacjohnson. com website. Both for the blog and the web site I like to write titles that will grab reader’s attention. However it’s not the titles but the substance of the articles and the blogs I like to focus on and that’s why Cacj is not a daily blog because I feel that a blog should have substance.  The goal of Cacj blog is to increase reader response whether the readers are patrons, sponsor, or donors the more feedback from readers about the blogs &articles on cacjohnson web site will help me to tweak the articles written. My nights and weekends are spent reading books, magazines, editing photos, looking for leads, critiquing articles while simultaneously looking for catch titles plus studying other authors written work to improve my own personal writing style. Cacj Blog is not just a blog but a billboard to draw more readers to cacjohnson. com website. Both for the blog and the web site writing titles that will grab reader’s attention does not always miraculously appear out of thin air. As I mentioned in this blog,the goal of cacj blog is to increase reader response whether the readers are patrons, sponsor, or donors the more feedback from readers about the blogs &articles on cacjohnson web site will help me to tweak the articles written.I currently have several magazine subscriptions, a member of two book clubs, DVD club and music club.The dates for the blog have not been set as of today, I will inform bloggers and  readers  within the following weeks when to look for  my bloggs as reader response increase.(Test Site)

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Fast Foward /Rewind/ Press Play

“As I am learning to keep things in perspective,as well as, not to be overly histronic.Consequently, understanding that America has had several tragedies, most importantly, the process of regaining and recovering from the 9/11 attack affected millions of Americans in their personal relationships and financial affairs. Subsequently, the timeline for putting millions of Americans including myself back on the right financial path has not been an easy task,nonetheless, the opposition has been numerous (outsourcing, minimum wage, lending institutions, and mortgage crisis.) Although, the economy may not be as many Americans would like it to be I still continue to search for my American Dream ,as modified as it maybe, I do not think that American Consumers are Americans in general should totally discard or cast out the American Dream completely. As far as living in Hampton Roads, I continue to network in the community,likewise I continue to work in building a repertoire. …” MVP:Taboo

For every visitor that visits www.cacjohnson.com web site “you” are helping someone stay in a job and creating jobs for other individuals, each time “you” visit a hyperlink on this web site located on the:

Product of the Month and Product and Services page suchas;www.walgreens.com,www.riteaid.com,www.walmart.com again helps to keep employees in jobs and create jobs.Let’s keep the job force strong and keep the jobs that are still here in the United States in the United States. Cacjohnson welcomes emails and letters.

Disclosure Agreement: Initially, cacjohnson informed visitors that the web site would feature biweekly articles of my consumer experience before and after college. I am still committed to keeping the initial disclosure that www.cacjohnson.com will feature biweekly articles of my consumer experience. Although, I am not on schedule as planned with the biweekly articles, I recently updated (MVP ,C’est Combien,At my bad im good&At my best i’m better)with some helpful information for the holidays. Currently, as the main writer of cacjohnson, I am working to gather documents, supportive information, as well checking for accuracy of the information presented in the articles that will reflect a standard of quality writing. Subsequently, the purpose of the articles located on the website to present useful information to readers; to engage readers to think about their consumer habits, the articles located on the web site are not randomly selected. Throughout the web site the reference to “I”, “me”, ”Consumer Affairs Consultant” will be referred to at different times as “cacjohnson”,similarly, “Patrons”,”Sponsors”, and “Donors” will be referred to as “you”, “shopper”, and “consumer”

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A Rose Is Still A Rose by any other name…Let Love Rule

On January 19th, Martin Luther Kings Celebrated Birthday, I received a call from debt collector at approximately 7:04 pm wanting to discuss the U.S Department of Education (1-866-922-0095). I was not pleased to be having this conversation on the day of Martin Luther Kings Birthday primarily because I was called by a previous debt collector for the entire month of December everyday on the hour in reference to a student loan and the US Dept of Education, currently my check is being garnished and the women on the other end of the phone want to emphasize that particular point. Instead of trying to find an alternative solution to helping me repay the student loan, either US Department of Education or debt collectors would rather call me everyday until I have heart attack, commit suicide, or brain embolism, or aneurysm. Since 2005, I was forced to sleep in my car for 7 months, spent about a month in homeless shelter, and several weeks in drug rehabilitation and (no I am not drug addict) a dumb strawberry blonde but not a drug addict. I felt insulted to be called on Martin Luther King Day about student loan that compounds interest everyday. However; obtaining employment is and has not been my problem from congenial, finding and maintaining housing that would allow me to work and repay my debts has been and still remains the underline obstacle (issue). In my biography on my web site I state that I went to school on a 4 year scholarship that paid about $3000.00 a semester received a fee waiver for a summer semester, while my grandmother collected and paid by money order with help of relatives $500.00  for  the summer classes. I have always been grateful, thankful, believed in giving back to the community for one had it not been for J.D and Alice Butler I might not have matriculated as far because my father lost his job in Tallahassee, had a car repossed, lost his land from understanding upon relocating to Deerfield Beach Florida in 1984. I believe in serving the community as my grandmother did  at the age between forty and forty five when she started giving up her holidays with her family to work in soup kitchen to help the less fortunate or my father who was continual on call for members of the community when problems arose with their housing, employment; I don’t have a problem with servitude but I do have a problem with obsequiousness to further describe my pressing thoughts while re-reading a book by John P.Marquand the ideals I was brought up on might be explained best through this excerpt:

An Excerpt from The Late George Apley “It has always seemed to me that great establishments are senseless and egotistical and do not help ones’ name in the community. It is better to think one’s self as a steward who owes the community a definite debt;….My father once made a remark which I shall now repeat to you because it illustrates this attitude .One evening not very long before his death, when seated with him on Hillcrest piazza watching the gold setting sun on the leaves of our great elms, I happened to make some casual remark about servants, when my father stopped me by beating impatiently on the floor with his walking stick. “I do not like words” ’servants’ ” he said, “when used to  differentiate a certain class of persons from us. In a sense we are all servants. Placed here on earth to serve .Some of us, by the will and omniscience of the Divinity, have been given a greater task than others….It would be difficult to find a more accurate expression of the sentiment which has actuated so many individuals in our group. It may be true that George Apley did not live up entirely to these ideals—as indeed, who has?—but in a measure they were before him always. They explain much of his own simplicity in life, which to the last he took a definite, if perhaps an over-meticulous, pride. It was always his ideal, for example, that anyone less fortunate situated than him should feel at easy in his house and should not feel self- conscious because it was encumbered with the externals of luxury so prevalent in estates …..It is difficult to visualize either the extent or the significance of the changes to which George Apley was obliged himself as the result of his father’s death”

 

Trend Watch

 

Trend Watch:

After the economic drought of 2008 left a nebulous over the economy, watching America’s homeless population during economic challenges of 2009 should be a great concern to many Americans. State Representatives, Senators, Congress men and women should work assiduously to  providing affordable housing  for the Nations homeless population, at the same time, while lawmakers work incessantly on rebuilding the economy, providing affordable housing for these disenfranchised individuals should remain at the forefront and part of Congress’ agenda for 2009. The 2008 economic drought  in effect enlighten many Americans that inevitably each American in the United States had been either directly or indirectly affected the economic climate of 2008. For many,“….doing without cable TV and other convinences are unbearable. Would you accept having to live with nothing but the clothes you have on and what little you can carry.”

www.homelessamerica.com

 

Envision, American one the worlds wealthiest nations with a growing population of homeless person. Who are America’s homeless people? They are from the veneer people just like you and me; they are the disenfranchised, they are overworked and under paid, they are middle class families, they are young and old; and they represent all walks of life. According to Bill O’Reily, who  exclaimed during the broadcast of his syndicated radio show he tells his audience that homeless people are homeless because they “will not support themselves, they want to get drunk or they want to get high, or they don’t want to work because they’re lazy.”

www.mediamatters.org

 

Although, a number of homeless people many project or portend such attitudes to the general American population; many of American homeless population are homeless for different reasons other than non- condign or insubordinate behavior. Many of American homeless became homeless because of health related issues or mental illness such as; (schizophrenia, manic depression, physical and sexual abuse.)Subsequently, the growing population of homeless persons in America 1 out of 4 homeless persons  are Veterans, consequently, veterans make an over representation of the nations homeless, nearly “40% of veteran men are homeless” ;”homeless veterans are more likely to be white better educated, and previously or currently married than non veterans” —-www.nationalhomeless.org adding to this population are American Families, which includes young adolescences “As many as 3.5 million people are homeless at sometime over the course of the year..” www.homelessamerican.com

 

From “A study by HUD  surveys in January 2005 released 2/28/07, indicated that 744, 313 homeless in the US, “ also “California was the highest and Nevada had the highest percentage….” www.homeless.america.com

 

As reported by the National Resource and Training on Mental Illness that states many of Americas homeless population report health problems, the following list shows the percentage of homeless with substance and health related issues:

 

38% alcohol abuse

 

26%drug abuse

 

39% have some form of health related problems

 

20%-25% meet the requirements for mental illness

 

66% have substance or mental health problems

 

3% have HIV/AIDS

 

26% have acute health problems (HIV/AIDS, Pneumonia, Sexually Transmitted Diseases or Tuberculosis)

 

46% have chronic health problems (high blood pressure, diabetes, or cancer)

 

23% “…are veterans compared to the general population.”

 

54%”…were incarcerated at some point in their lives.”

 

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             —  –    www.mediamatters.org

For the entire month of February Nightly Business Report  with Suzie Gharib & Paul Kangas will air an segment called “Reviving the Economy”  for more information  about this month long segment airing in February 2009 American Consumers can visit www.pbs.org/nbr

 

Part II.Trend watch:

In 2008,during the months of November and December, many of America’s middle class families,as well as, the unemployed, and homeless population that was incapacitated by the credit and mortgage crisis aggreggated to local churches and community organiztionsi.e(Salvation Army) for assistance with (rent, utilities, and food). Ostensibly in 2009,American Consumers are eschewing homelessness by being frugal, delaying gratification, and altering their lifestyles to avoid further attrition of financial resources. At the same time, the relevancy of watching the numbers of America’s homeless population after the mortgage crisis of 2008 : (1) proves that American Consumers are altruistic when the countries experiences devastating losses from natural disasters,  terrorist attacks, or failing Financial Institutions; furthermore, it proves that American Consumer are earnest and capable of  delaying gratification to help less fortunate Americans (2) also, it  proves that America’s homeless are not hopeless; (3) at the same time, it  proves the homeless in America are capable of being viable citizens; (4)lastly, it proves that homelessness in America should not be viewed as impasse. Certainly, the frugality of American Consumers shows that consumers are cognizant of the importance and significance of the economic crisis in 2008 that has caused some American Consumers to become abased. Moreover, many American Consumers are abdicating their affluent lifestyles until more favorable and stable economic climate develops on Wall Street and within Financial Institutions. In fact, Americans are being abstemious because of the economy. In many instances, families are eating out less while more American families are utilizing stated funded food pantries to supplement monthly groceries. Unfortunately, in 2008 towards the latter part of the year, many of these state funded food pantries reported shortages in supplies. Not surprisingly, many of the people utilizing these state funded pantries consist of American from all walks of life and not just America ’s homeless population. Subsequently, the economic downturn of 2008 proved American Consumers are not impervious; the economic recession has affected Americans from all walks of life whether directly or indirectly. Although, the American economy has for years been thrived on democracy and capitalism, the recent attenuation in consumer spending contributed to; however, not to be mistaken as the primary cause for job loss and job layoff that has now extended into 20009.Consequently, because of the economic downturn of 2008 American Consumers are being resolute to not profligate resources. In past years observers, onlookers, and working Americans has subjugated homeless people to their prejudices, prescience’s , and bon mot’s to classify and categorize America’s homeless as lazy people who do not want to work, or persons with a penchant for drugs, alcohol, and promiscuity. As a result of the economic crisis in 2008, circumspect observers, onlookers, and working Americans are more likely to think twice before making gibes at America ’s homeless. In many instances, the disparity between America’s homeless population and America’s working population are precarious to becoming homeless, destitute, or impecunious ; in most cases, homelessness results from job loss, poor financial, as well as,  health related issues, or the death of a love often precludes the ability  of homeless person to maintain, work and stable housing. Conversely, it would be fallacious statement to state that all homeless people are impertinent or incorrigible. Instead, reducing the number of homeless people in America should remain at the forefront along with affordable housing and health for all Americans, not affronts, quips, burlesque or brusque colloquies; most importantly, homelessness in America should not be viewed as impasse.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Surviving the times

 

Getting back on the saddle:Jobs,Work,Careers,&Money,Credit,Debt visit www.cacjohnson.com for more information. . The following is posted as seen on myspace page.

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Introduction to cacjohnson.com

I am 37  year old female with two degrees A.A & B.A with retail experience, I am only interested in persons who have visited my web site that have similar goals,upbringing,ideas,&ambitions. Along with similar goals, I am also interested in individuals who are highly motivated,& goal orientated. Most importantly, I look forward to reading responses and blogging with the shared community. As stated on my web site  cacjohnson. com is a small minority web site/start up that is currently in the early  stages of development, I have over ten years in sales and customer relations. I am currently looking for Sponsors &Donors to sponsor the web site;I am also asking from each Sponsor $10.00/or if you do not want to be a sponsor you still can donate,however, bloggers of similar interest should  take the first step and visit http://www.cacjohnson.com. As of October 08,2008 I have added to the front page “The views and opinions expressed on the web site of cacjohnson.com are solely those of cacjohnson and not of  its Patrons, Sponsors, &Donors”  

 

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August 2009

August is the official month of http://www.cacjohnson.com birthday. Since the inception of cacjohnson.com, I continue to encounter obstacles;particularly, in the area of debt consolidation. A difficult and challenging month, the choices that confronted and awaited me in the month August,also held close ties to my becoming debt free. The choices that confronted me in the month of August included choosing a debt consolidation program,selling (Cash 4 Clunkers program)or donating my car,and celebrating the birthday of the website in August or in September the month of Birthday.—cacjohnson

September 2009

September is the month of cac’s founder and president’s birthday. September a month filled with anticipation as well as uncertainty. Towards the end of August I decided,I definitely wanted September be a power month like power walking or playing racquet ball. September is the month I choose to make the greatest impact in my finances,personal life,and career. What began as a year, and a month of me closing in on FORTY,ultimately, the thought of turning FORTY brought me closer to my goals. Optimizing the social networking applications,I ordered online 2 Bebright Pink T’s from cause I’ve known about and have been educated on since high school,also I ordered online the Social Diva handbook,and I choose a debt consolidation program. With out a hitch not quite, September did not go without a hitch,on the morning of my birthday I had to return my birthday cake because I didn’t ask about the ingredients and the decision to donate my 1985 Toyota Corolla with sunroof and new locks to the Purple Heart Donors only two days before my 38^th birthday. Definitely, a hard decision to make because I m from Florida born and raised in Florida,formally educated and introduced to the sheriff in Florida, a brownie,a girl scout,a cadett,educated& graduated from an accredited Florida University and school system. Florida the “Sunshine state” beaches,exotic food,mix culture,long hair& short hair,most importantly it’s the state that gave me hope,embraced my skin color(ie Martin Luther King Day,Martin Luther Blvd, and Esther Rolle street). September the month of my birthday brought me closer to my my goal, my dream and resonated within my inner being like the sound of the waves the on the beach “Life is a process,and success in anything comes inch by inch,stroke by stroke,and step by step.”—cacjohnson

 

“Follow your dreams..take one step at time and don’t settle for less,just continue to climb”Amanda Bradley

“My dreams today are meant to guide me. I will take the first step toward making my dreams come true. June 3rd”….”

“The antidote is and always will be action,responsible action. Every concern,every experience wants our attention,our active attention. Sept 19th”— “Each Day A New Beginning” Women Book of Daily Meditation

 

October 2009

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ghost,Ghouls,and Goblins….A month later after my 38^th birthday, I continue  to shop,to clip coupons,as  well as work to reduce my current debt.In the month of August and September I was able to reduce my number of returns and exchanges. Living on less than one third of my income, I am longer able to buy items such as shoes and clothing from the mall . Items I might have perceived in the past as must haves,I have to leave on the rack at clothing stores and food  on the shelf. I have resorted to buying  my shoes at the local thrift store that only ask for an minimal amount, for example,shoe cost $2.50 and boots are $5.00.Getting the designer look ,I have to go to the extreme and shop in the childrens section that offer tops and jeans for less. My greatest moment of weakenss happend in Walmart when I laid eyes on a pair of $20.00 JEANS i RESOLUTELY, left the jeans at the counter, a total disappoint, the fact I stop wearing $65.00 GAP Jeans to wearing $10.00 Levis.At 37th I wrote my self efficacy,at 38th I focused on achieveing my new years resolution Getting out Debt. Unequivocally,in September, I made some tough decisions starting  with my  (tough love)i.e 1985 Toyota Corolla yet I was able to preserver through the month;although, I preserved through the  month on the bare necessities.Nonetheless,the ambiance of the month was not ephemeral yet, the versimilitude of  the mood  and social environment i.e conditions remained a  some strange act faith(Against all odds …but its a chance I got take…) Veritably,as  the example of life making lemonade out oranges,I believe  with all of the obstacles  I encountered in September my 38th Birthday wasn’t that awful.The title section on my web site“At My Bad I’m Good&At My Best I’M Better” clearly  states my thoughts pertaining to the month of September. Egregiously,(I didnt squeeze any grapefruit, and I wont be going a grapefruit  diet any time in the near future.) Incontrovertibly,my social conditions is of a person living in a third world country with exception of access to modern technology. Yet in the midst of my ongoing adversity my sentiments,thoughts,as well asfeelings remain the same that the message of cac is exigent;furthermore,any personal feelings or emotions I might have regarding the surrounding conditions i.e economy,jobs, or housing is inconsequential,instead,it’s my deepest aspiration to remain diligent in providing access  especially for individuals with no credit or bad credit,an opportunity to improve their social condition as I experience first hand effects of the economic recession of 2008&2oo9 directly affecting middle class Americans . ..I Love Lucy, actually, I prefer Carol Burnett,Suzanne Sommers Goldie Hawn, &Meg Ryan—”Saving Private Benjamin/cacjohnson

Showing up 4 life is 1/2 the battle

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Showing up for life is half the battle: To show up in many instances requires (that as an consumer we) putting aside differences and personal agendas to show love, and support of close family members and friends often this requires that a consumer shows up with an open mind being receptive as well as perceptive in mannerism that is condign at that moment in addition to showing propriety. Typically,consumers confront everyday experiences with little prescience of life extremities;however,showing up for life is a prerequisite. Life requires that consumer not be quiescent but instill quietude in a daily routine to seek guidance and direction because not everything is for every consumer (everyone.) Normally, on an quotidian activity, a consumer experiences little interference while performing daily task; therefore, it is not surprising, in some instances that consumers often feelsaturnine or exacerbated because of stymied,delayed, or alternated plans. Although, a consumer thwarted plans causes them to feel exasperated or become lassitude as result of inadequate feelings consumer miss out on many of the p recious moments of life.Usually,the dreaded decisions,the conferences with the supervisor,family gatherings,presentations all require the consumer to show up 4 life. Showing up 4 is 1/2 the battle. American consumers frequently tout successful people that have accomplished their goals and dreams despite the obstacles.Ruefully,veritably, and unceremoniously,altruism a word to define the unselfish concerns for others, thus , often showing up for life requires the full attention of the individual. Unequivocally,as a consumer showing up for life requires taking action becoming actively involved in the lives of the others not becoming completely absorbed in personal melodrama to give concession to special events showing support and altruism,for example showing up at movie premiers,dance recitals,graduations,weddings,birthdays,anniversaries,seminars, beauty pageants and to job interviews Showing up for life requires that as consumers  not be spurious or disingenuous with status quo realizing as consumers when (we) reach an impasse showing up for life is half the battle to discovering an solution. Many times it is the consumers attitude that often precludes success ;more specifically, self esteem, finance,and coquetry.As a consumer overcome fears and dispell the myths about life,love,&money,then  with practice consumers ultimately will experience personal growth that often is far more greater than the actual success achieved. It is particularly important that consumers remember while enduring obstacles, and thwarted plans not all of life dilemmas are irremediable. As consumers we spend 80% percent of our time with coworkers 10% of the time standing in a line and another 10% on vacation or at leisure, all of the following requires that a consumer show up 4 life.

As the articles for cacjohnson become more difficult, I at times  felt exasperated and disconcerted with the progression of  the development cacjohnson.com. Particularly, in  the month of October cacjohnson.com had its high and lows, with outstanding debts and donations slow trickling  in the progess of cacjohnson is  improving;however, the progress is  contingent on the number of readers and followers. Highlights for the month October: I bought eight bags of traditional Halloween candy 1 bag from Walgreens and 7 bags from Rite Aid on sale. The greatest discover : I discovered that Rite Aid Halloween candy was 99cent in comparison to Walgreens $1.39. The Biggest disappoint: I didnt have Halloween candy on Halloween. The biggest disappoint I didn’t get to dress up as PoisonIvy,Snow White,an American Idol, Barbie,orBettyBoop.

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Embitter,embattled,emblazoned,embroider,and embodied within these genetics cells remains remnants of the creator:

 

Embitter,embattled,emblazoned,embroider,and embodied within these genetics cells remains remnants of the creator:Life’s opposition  has a way of making  the  person  who opposes the opposition to believe he(or)she has become embitter. Denials,delays, and disappoints all to frequently sear the perception  of  life’s  experiences. Hanging onto many of life’s lesson I learned  during my childhood has brought me through many of life’s test and trial  such as ,respect your elders, “you can catch more bees with honey and sugar than  you can with salt and alka  seltzer ,” obey your  mother and father, and brush your teeth after every meal”  all lessons I learned as a child.  Adolescence  an  period  in  one’s existence that  as  a child  one rarely feels embittered about anything. A child quickly learn simple emotions from adults ,for example,  happy,sad,proud,mad,or hurt but to be embittered that’s a grow up emotion. The word embitter has so many negative connotations especially in referencing to women as  scorned, contemptuous, disdain,malicious,and recalcitrant. Embittered a word that takes a bite out of life making life experiences harsh,brutal,and saturnine. While the simple fact remains that living in the moment often brash and done precipitously, for instance,drug addiction,sex addiction,lewd and lascivious behavior,gang banging and alcoholism  leaves many of the users,offenders,and abusers feeling embittered about life. Today, if I am feeling embittered about life that means I ‘ve approached  a brick in the road ,I’ve told myself a lie , I’m not embittered about recent life events experiences “I’m mad as hell.” But as I learned as a child that’s just an emotion that’’s not who I am. “I can be happy for both the rain and the clouds for without both neither would have  meaning”It’s better to embrace  the embitterment then to let the embitterment leave you bitter as Paul stated in Corinthians “in all things I  learned to be content…press towards the mark of  higher calling…” Likewise with conflict,as a child  I learned that conflict most often could be resolved by an supervising adult ,conflict a term used to describe outer turmoil of young teens with surroundings and people. Conflict a term often used in speaking with small children and adolescences more appropriately used and gets the most mileage as a descriptive word than being applied as a verb intransitive when referring to trouble teens. Instead of calling a child or teen a loser,a bad seed,spoil rotten,ADD(attention deficit disorder,) a trouble teen,or a trouble child, certainly,simply stated as a child with a conflict (noun)diminish es the child as a trouble a maker (the child is having conflict not the child is the conflict.) Conflicts occur everyday ,for instance,conflict on the playground,conflict in the lunchroom,conflict at recess,conflict with teachers,conflict with relatives,conflict on the job  as the word conflict transitions itself from verb,noun,to an adjective it lessens the harshness of  it’s meaning. As child , I remember conflict really didn’t exist as a verb but an rather an emotion. Although,as an adolescence I experienced  conflict ,and I felt conflict it didn’t define who I was. The conflict I encountered expressed its  outward self as I was at  conflict with something or someone by the end of the day  the  word,the feeling, the emotion conflict became“I don’t know”. During my adolescences I quickly learned adults resolved conflict, eventually over a given time I’d  learn to resolve conflict from the adults in my life’s circle. To be in conflict with surroundings and people  that’s an childhood emotion but to  be embattled that’s an grownup emotion. I was embattled about going away to college,I was embattled about having sex for the first time,I was embattled about resigning  from my job,I was embattled about relocating to another state,and the most notorious em-battlement occurred recently ,not surprisingly, I  was embattled about donating my car. I’ve been embattled but that’s not who I am “I am not at conflict with my self” but I do experience and feel conflict daily. Whether I’m embittered or embattled,I’m seldom emblazoned to discuss at length the details of  the thread used to intricately wove together my life. However; I am emblazoned  to a degree to know “winners never quit and quitters never win” Also,I am emblazoned to know that learning to pick your fights still remains the number one key to survival.  Most importantly, I am emblazoned to the degree to know each thread  woven into my life holds meaning despite the fact if it’s good or if it’s bad. I’ve been emblazoned but that’s  only a thread  of who I am. Emblazoned to know a  prizefighter attacks the bull head on; he meets his opponent with one objective to win the prize. I’m not attacking any bulls in the near future and by all means if you see one in the street run the other way,definitely,get out of the way don’t try and take the bull alone. It’s not embroider in me to fight every bull or run down every street  looking for a bull .Yes, embroidery was  done  from the day I was born until  day I  went to college “train a child up in the way which they shall go and they will not depart from it” I think the thread starting to overlap,I don’t know, some of the same thread keep showing up  that’s  what  a  hemstress calls double stitch to make sure the hem doesn’t unravel and hangs then  the pant or dress get tattered and torn and that  cost more money to fix now the pant  or dress requires a patch  of the same fabric or new hemstress one .Another one of life’s lesson as a small child I learned to change out my school clothes right after school keep my play clothes seperate from my work clothes and don’t around outside you might scrap your knee and blood is a tough stain to get clothes,you can  wear those same clothes you had on yesterday stop wasting all those people water..laundry piled up  to the ceiling either y’all learn to wash clothes or stop buying  em one after while all y’all gone start looking alike…what  was the Sunday school about on Sunday ,tell me who Jesus was and what did for you,“he died on the cross and pave the way for my sins”,no, “he took a loaf bread and a piece of fish and fed five thousand it does matter if the fish was salt water or fresh, one day old or jumped right out the ocean ,Happy Thanksgiving,never too old for barbie,never too 2learn,never too late 2go back to school, never too late 2 sleep with a male prostitute,I mean  never too late 2get married,never too late 2learn how to drive” what kind  car do yall drive some yall drive cars better than me  and  I did all the work, never too 2late 2find a new line of work,I think yall get the picture…to be embroider,e-m-b-r-o-i-d-e-r, to have embroidery work done from birth througthout a life span…Embroider,embroidered,stitch,sewn,inveterated,inculcated, etched in my on fabric the lessons and experiences I ‘ve learned from each person  I’ve  held a conversation with long or short,from each person I’ve sat at  a table and  shared  a dinner, from each person I’ve met  at the grocery store,movie theater, gas station,restaurant, laundry mat ,club, and church gathering a thread  was woven. Embroider,it’s not stitched in the shirts that I wear like an label,it’s not sewn into the jeans I wear,and it’s not braided into my hair, but its embroider in my memory the lessons of my childhood,adolescence,and college years; etiquette’s and manners  such as, mind your manners,yes madam and no madam ,please and thank you, dot every I  and cross every t, I before e except  after  c” ,the Ten Commandments…(thou shall not  kill,thou shall not steal…honor and obey thy mother and father,)and say your prays every night before you go to sleep.”Now I lay me down to  sleep,if I should die before I wake the Lord I pray my soul to take.” Amen at the same time,embodied within these genetics cells remains remnants of the creator. Imperceptibly,365 days of shopping on one of those days,on more than one of  those days I’ve become embitter,embattled,and emblazoned with images and languages on Twitter,MySpace,&Facebook primarily because not to many people grew up being called “Molly Miss Manners”it’s just something about  being mad, being in conflict,attacking bulls everyday,praying that the thread  doesn’t unravel  as a grownup that makes Goliath  look stronger than David, turns Satan into a Sex symbol, makes Christianity only for sinners and make the saved look lost,yes, I’ve been embittered,embattled and emblazoned but that’s not who I am what’s being embroider in me that’s who I am. Embitter,embattled,emblazoned,embroider,and embodied within these genetics cells remains remnants of the creator:The moral of the story is Jesus fed five thousand,Abuse of power, Right of use,Copy right infringement(how many of those fish did Jesus duplicate,that’s beside the point) or 2Lijit 2Quit.—cacjohnson